how u wish that things were the way they were used to be? those days where u were the most carefree person in the whole wide world. the time where u think it wouldnt end... my time was when i was in secondary sch. pri sch was mostly a blur to me. jc sucks. uni.. dun even bother to mention it...

i was a total nerd in sec sch. and i am very proud to admit it. eh... afterall u need to be of some calibre to be condsidered a nerd right... anywae, the only 'troubles' that i have was sch work sch work and more sch work. in fact, i didnt think there were enough of sch work.. i even stayed back after sch to continue doing my ten-year-series... yes.. those bibles...back then we all swore by them.. even teachers.. if u can complete the entire bible w/o major problems... u can alreasy see urself getting an A for the O leves...

frenz are a truthful lot. now then i realise... fren made during mi sec sch days and perhaps pri sch days... are realli called frenz... who will stay with u... ur ups and downs.. u can realli count on them... i am realli lucky to have made a lot of like-minded frenz during mi sec sch... ten years on and counting... i am sure we will all be frenz forever...

those days of choir... unforgettable. staying back after sch is more fun then a chore... esp for choir practice.. though we felt then was a chore.. of did we? haha.. anywae, i am pretty sure we've had more fun at choir than troubles/problems... competition.. SYF... there was even a time i remember i wasnt selected for a competition or SYF... we were all standing in formation and singing in a lecture hall.. and JAMES LEE was walking around listening to each individual singing... so nervous sia.. and when he came to me, he actually pulled mi out!!!??? diaoz... maybe i am/was realli that bad.. but anywae... because of mi frenz again... i managed to got back in the group.. hahaha....then came the time when we went to this compeition at PS. and among the top choirs.. we actually got third..!!! so touching!!!! i guess most of us teared.. haha...

things are a lot more complicated now... the older u get, the weirder ppl get... cause the older u get, the more ppl u see... the more u will feel... eh.. how come this kinda ppl exist.. for all mi 1X life... i've never seen this kinda person b4....

then u have to work. not that i'm saying its a chore or wat.. but... working itself for the sake of working... is realli no life... i've personal experience with S**.... dun work for the sake of working.. realli...but life is always full of uncertainty.. now that i've found a job as an environmental engineer... i'm starting to think again... am i realli going for an engineering job.. will i realli be very happi with all the technical work invovled?....

then u start to go into relationship... i personally dun have this experience when i was no older than 2X...so i get to experience the BGR problems now... haha.. call mi a late starter.. i remember hearing someone say b4 that being in a relationship, u can get to know urself more and wat u wan more. this is because in the process of trying to know the other party, u will also find urself having a clearer view of wat u see in the relationship. i dunno if u know wat i'm saying... if not.. juz treat it that i'm blabbering.. ha...there are many many other things that can be said about relationships... but i think i will not elaborate furher.... this entry is getting quite long liao.. ha...

then u also start to handle the finances in the family... i'm already staring to take over the bills... there is this stupid jacky chueng's song singing:" no bills to pay~~~~~" now i'm realli appreciating wat he is trying to sing....

and then u have more and more responsibilites... in all areas that u can think of... on a more selfish tone... i realli wish to just run away from all these responsibilities... but.. not possible. *_*

hai.

kk.. long entry.. i'm realli tired mentally and emotionally..... *YAWNZ*



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