it has been soooo long that i've posted anything on my blog.. sorri for the MIA ...

13 days since 2007... and my year start with a bad note already...



my grandma passed away on 12/01/2007 and was pronounced dead at 0010 (12:10 am). 1,2,1,0.... can buy eh... ha... kk.... ~__________~

i wasnt extremely shocked or sad. cause she has been 'slowly dying away' since half a month ago.. when her cancer relasped and spread to her liver... terminal stage... she started to get realli yellow... cause her liver isnt functioning anymore... me and mh went down to visit her for quite a few times...

the day before she died... my mum asked mi to go down to her hse and see her cause it feels like she cant make it anymore... and so mh drove us down and that was the last time i ever saw my grandma...alive and dead.. cause the coffin is fully closed...

that morning of 12th, i received a call at 3 am from my mummy... i had juz finished mapling and was about to go to sleep... my whole heart jumped.. cause u know that that call isnt gonna bring good news..
" ah ma's dead" she told me...i was momentarilly numbed... no feelings watsoever... i guess i kinda have this excellent ability to detach myself out of the situation which i feel it will affect me emotionally... hence i do not feel a thing...

it rained for the entire day and night of the 12th... bad weather and funeral... bad combination.. the moment i reached my ah ma's place... i totally feel uncomfortable... i dun like funerals... i dun like ppl crying (though nobody is crying then)... i dun like unhappy gatherings....

i was told my ah ma passed away peacefully... like sleeping... hope she is somewhere in heaven...