my heart wrenches everytime i try to suck in my breath. and with each and every wrench, i feel as if my heart is in such pain and my body so cold. with each and every wrench, i am trembling so much inside that i had to let it all out. with every burst of tears, my body trembled more. i immerse myself in the pain and more tears flowed. i tried to muffle my screams in a bid to lessen the pain in my heart. tears flowed more.

stupid. ignorant. lazy. i tell myself. why am i always messing things up? why do i always have to make the decision? why am i born so? why am i questioning my own existence? why am i so self contradicting all the time? why do i find it harder and harder to convince myself? why? why? why?

can anybody give me an ans...?

i realli nd an ans to life.

my life.

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