yes. today is the day that penguin gets attached. one word: WEIRD.......

before anyone of u GASPS, CHOKES and FAINTS..... yes. when i mean attached, i mean attached with a boyfren... two words: EVEN WEIRDER.......

i've never ever in the history of my 21 and 9 months of my life been labelled as "attached with a boyfriend".... it sounded even more unbelievable as i type this....

u may be wondering... who the hell is this guy.. well. i got to know him through my IA... and well. things juz worked out from there.

by right, i should be feeling very happy, excited and well, everything nice... but then, as a true virgo who is such a perfectionist.... i began to question... wat does it mean to be in a relationship... like i've told some of u b4... does it mean giving the other party the certificate to hold your hands... to kiss u... and to do other weird stuffs.... it's like plainly giving urself away, or rather letting someone into your world, into your mind without knowing wat he is carrying... a sword? a gun? or a bouquet of roses??? wat will it be. i dunno. tt's why i am kinda feeling confused now...and very afraid too. sometimes, i juz wish time would turn back and nuth had happened.

i know. i cant juz throw everything aside and walk away...

i also understand i am viewing this thing in a very negative manner. i am not talking about this relationship with this guy. i bet i'll feel like this with any other guy too... prob is because i've never really tasted it (being in a true relationship)... and tt's why i got a lot of questions left unanswered...

i hope he doesnt have my blog address... ha. if not he'll be extremely worried and saded....

hope this post has not make u puke blood out of pure surprise.... hehe

nxt time.